Subscribe in a reader

Aug 1, 2015

0 Thanks to God on Blue Moon

I want to thank God and Jesus and The Holy One for everything. For communicating with my soul and with me. For using others to help me. For humbling me to His Greatness.

A lot of times I ask God for help, I get upset like God is silent and not responding, and I ask for forgiveness a lot. But we need to also take out time to thank God and Jesus and The Holy Ghost for all that He does for us.

Thank you Jesus for dying for our sins. That we won't be in Hell. Have a chance through Your Blood to be with you forever. To have love in our lives.

I know I am not perfect, I know I get confused, I know my faith isn't on par with how I want it to be. Maybe I am being insane I think or maybe I am not having faith correctly and in the right elements and that God won't correct my steps.

But thank you God for treating me as your Son, just as Jesus is your Son. Thank you God for forgiving us and doing good for us even when our heart screams WHY.

Thank you for all of the signs even if I question them all of the time. Thank you for giving us Life when sometimes I think if I am using it good. Thank you for always being our mediator Jesus.

And I know that I can go on and on and on and God already knows what is in my heart and what I will say before I say it.

But I truly do Love you with more than all of my Heart and Mind and Soul and I hope that whatever mistakes or wrongs or sins or confusions I fall into, That I offer you more Love, Happiness, and Good Deeds in your Name than my imperfect self.

Take care, LYWAMHMS TGJH

Your Loving Son, Anthony 

Jul 8, 2015

0 Thank you God and Jesus and The Holy Ghost. Here is to Us and Our Future.

I want to thank God and Jesus and The Holy Ghost and to Glorify His name.

I've been going through a lot lately. I been having trails and tribulations. And throughout all of the worries and fears and sufferings, God and Jesus and The Holy Ghost has always been there.

When I prayed to God and Jesus and The Holy Ghost, God answered. Not because of anything I did. But because God Loves us. Jesus Loves us. The Holy Ghost Loves us. and sometimes the prayers weren't answered right away or in the manner that I wanted, but they were answered in far better ways.

Just yesterday, God showed my fiancee and me a Rainbow when we needed a sign from Him right outside our window.

Today, God used a raven to prevent us from going down a bad path and line of thinking when my Fiancee asked Him to help us inside her heart.

God is there. Jesus is there. The Holy Ghost is there. and sometimes we aren't suppose to see evidence that They are. Sometimes we are suppose to go through what we are to be stronger.

When I needed comforting verses and quotes and messages to keep me going, God gave them at the right times and right when I needed them.

I want to Thank God for helping us always. For comforting us. For guiding us. Sometimes I backdrop. Sometimes it feels like I will never get better. But God has shown me time and time again that He is always there to carry us through. And eventually everything will be far better than it was.

All we need to do is Trust God.

Thank you so much from all of my heart and mind and soul from Ashley and Myself.

Thank you so much for always being there. For giving us Grace and Mercy when we don't deserve it. Thank you and please keep guiding us even when we falter and am not perfect.

Hope you always have more Joy than sorrow from me. With Love Anthony and Ashley. 

Jun 29, 2015

0 Giving Praise and Worship to God and Jesus and The Holy Ghost,

All Glory Belongs to God and Jesus and The Holy Ghost.
When I'm in despair. When I'm angry. When I feel lost. When I am confused. When I am going through emotional Chaos. When all has forsake me. When all has turned on me. When everyone tries to rob away from me my contentness and my purpose and my truth and my love and my hope and my joy and my peace, God and Jesus and The Holy Ghost is there to contend for me. There to Love me. There to support me. There to strengthen me. There to Hold me. There to embrace me. There to give me strength. To Give me hope. To Help me throughout whatever is before me. To endure for me. To take on my pain. To take on my sufferings. To take on my problems. To uphold his Promises to me. To Uphold his Love. To uphold His Righteousness. To Uphold His Purpose.

Thank you God for everything. I truly love you with all of my heart and mind and soul, more so. And I know that even though I feel like I'm not at peace, not going anywhere good at times, and that I'm not me, I know that you will help me have peace, have good times and good paths, and help me be the best version of myself.

I am truly grateful that you are in my life and my Life is for you. I could and would never want to live a life void of you. I love your soul within me. You have bought me with Jesus' Precious Blood. I am yours.

With Love Through God and Jesus and The Holy Ghost, Anthony and Ashley. 

Jun 21, 2015

0 Happy Father's Day God, The Father of Lights, My Father.

Happy Fathers Day God.
Even though I miss my earthy father who died. I wish I had him around to talk with about all that I'm currently going through and the trails and tribulations because he added security to my soul.
Yet, You are my Father, my Heavenly Father God, and You are above all Fathers. And I almost forgot, but I wanted to wish you a Happy Fathers Day.
You've always been there for me through thick and thin. And even though when I feel like I'm losing myself and weakening in my faith. And everything seems to be so hard to hold onto. I know that you sent the rain to comfort me through Jesus Christ, My Lord and Savior.
Thank you for being the Perfect Father God. For knowing how to balance my soul and pick up the pieces even when I feel like they aren't clicking into place.
You are always there for me even when I sin and I'm imperfect.
I am really eternally grateful and Love you above all.
I also love my earthy father and honor him through You.
Thank you. I give Glory and Honor to Your Almighty and Righteous Name. A Name above all Names.
I really miss You when you are quiet. Really love when You are active. And I always know you are Always there for me.
Thank you for creating me. Even though at times life feels like hell and it won't end good for me. I know that it will. Please keep watching over your Faithful son. Please watch over me always and never let go.
I want to spend all eternity with you my God, My Heavenly Father, The Father of Lights.
With Love, Anthony- Amen.

Jun 20, 2015

0 If you are reading this Kayla or other family Members of Ashley

Not sure if Ashley's family subscribed to my RSS Feed and getting my blog updates that way, but if you are seeing this and reading this. It's time to stop all of this madness and evilness and revenge and pain and suffering. There is no reason to do this to Ashley.

I came to you guys even when I didn't like what you were doing to Ashley and told the Truth.

I never stopped Ashley from contacting you. I never hide important information from you.

You need to come forward with he Truth. That your Mother Died.

You tell me you want me to believe you guys when you guys lied. I called the nursing home. They gave me the contact number of your Dad. And HE LIED TO MY FACE. How are you guys not liars if you LIED RIGHT TO ME?

If you guys are the good ones and your mother is still alive. WHY WOULD YOU ROB ASHLEY OF PEACE if you truly think she's insane? THAT IS SICK. Even our criminal justice system has pity and understanding on those that needs help mentally.

BUT SHE ISN'T CRAZY. Everything she told me about what happened to her is proven by the witnessing I am doing through your interactions.

It's like all you guys care about is YOUR FREAKING IMAGE. WHY DO YOU FREAKING CARE SO MUCH MORE THAN LOVING YOUR SISTER?

WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY?

YOU ARE BEING SELFISH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

You guys only care about how you FEEL. What was DONE TO YOU. WHAT IS BEST FOR YOU.

When do you guys ever care to say SORRY and CARE about ASHLEY?

I am really getting tired of these games. I am ready to resolve everything. AND YET, you say you are tired and you continue to PLAY THESE SICK GAMES.

I don't hate you at all. I HAVE NO HATE FOR YOU. JUST ANGER THAT YOU WON'T COME AROUND.

I HAD SUCH HIGH HOPES FOR YOU. YET ALL YOU DO IS SIT IN SILENCE WHILE ASHLEY CRIES EVERY NIGHT THINKING NOTHING IS YOUR RESPONSIBILITY.

IT's like your only Responsibility in your mind is VENGEANCE.

I KNOW YOU GUYS CLAIM THAT WE BOTHER YOU. BUT YOU GUYS WILL SEE THIS POST. I KNOW YOU GUYS LOOK AT OUR STUFF. HOW CAN YOU BE HYPOCRITICAL AND SAY WE BOTHER YOU WHILE YOU GUYS STALK US?

WHAT PURPOSE IS THIS? WHERE IS THE FREAKING GAIN?

IF YOU TRULY LOVE GOD, DO WHAT GOD WANTS AND WOULD DO. PRAY TO GOD FOR GUIDANCE. AND TELL THE TRUTH AND MAKE MANIFEST THE TRUTH IN DARKNESS.

THIS ISN'T GOING ANYWHERE GOOD SO FAR. IT"S JUST GOING DOWN THE RABBIT HOLE>

Why can't you just be on your SISTER'S SIDE JUST THIS ONCE and BE A SISTER like FAMILY SHOULD.

You say FAMILY IS IMPORTANT BUT IN REALITY, YOUR FRUITS SHOW THAT YOU LOVE HATE AND REVENGE FAR MORE THAN FAMILY.

PROVE ME WRONG !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WHY DON'T YOU JUST PROVE ME WRONG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

So ANGRY INSIDE.

Jun 19, 2015

0 Please Pray that the Truth will be made Manifest in the Light About my Fiancee's Family.

Please pray for my fiancee and myself.
I tried to reason with her family. Her mother died. God let us know. But I was willing to talk with her mother if she was alive. But all her family did was lie to me about everything when I called the nursing home. And then they wanted me to trust their word without speaking to her mother about her being alive. Even though, all of the evidence from God and signs from God shows she is dead.
Even so, my fiancee just wanted peace of mind, to know that she was doing God's Will and to know the truth. She didn't want her mom dead or her dad. But they wouldn't give her peace of mind. Said that she needed to go to a mental health care and blocked her and us.
I pleaded basically to their sense of sensibility and reason and that God would never want this to go this far and she needs the truth and if her mother is alive, just let her talk to her for a minute or two.
But instead, they hide it, say that it's too stressful on the mother, and prevent the nursing home from giving any details about her condition to her own daughter and from them telling her if she is even alive or not.
The whole fiasco is sickening. For one, my fiancee never did this ever to them.
When they needed to know about her safety, they found it out. My fiancee told them. And yet in the past, they hide the grandma's death, her dog's death, and now her moms death.
We are overwrought worrying about doing what God wants. Worried that maybe we were wrong. But we aren't and we could use prayers from everyone that everything will be made manifest in the Light and that God will protect us as His Children.
Thank you, With Love through God and Jesus and The Holy Ghost, Amen.

No one should hide resolution like this ever. Hide peace of mind. It's horrible.

Take care, 

0 Ashley's Family won't let her mom tell her she's not dead.

*At the end of this, where my Husband tells my father he is the power to block, guess what? He blocked me from both accounts. It gives me all the proof in the world, my mother is dead. He didnt like that im putting this everywhere. he doesnt care that he hurts me deeply. And if my mother was alive, it would of taken a few minutes or so to block me on her account. But no, it was a mere second afterwards. And he thinks he is getting away with this? Nope. Think again dad.... This isnt over with. It may be online here and such, but God will come soon enough.*
Me:
This is Anthony. I know I talked to you on the phone
The nursing home gave me
And I have no idea why you are doing this
If Ashley's mom was alive
why wouldn't you let her speak to her for just 5 minutes
to ease her pain
do you want her to go insane
and to hurt her
That isn't of God
I don't get you at all
Why lie directly to my face on the phone
and hang up on Ashley
and Deny information
if she was alive
Why are you doing this
It makes no sense whatsoever
Ashley's been in pain for the last month
YOU SAID YOU WOULD UPDATE
Do you really want to be a liar?
Do we really have to find out another way?
I know you are reading this, answer me
This is a sick game
A simple phone call from her mom or a simple word from you that she is dead
would resolve everything
there is no malice
no anger
no hate
here
She doesn't want her mom dead
or you
all she wants to know is if she is knowing the truth or not
that is all
I've taken care of Ashley just like I said on the phone when she first moved to me and we talked.
You said man to man we would talk
I gave her the best life I could
I honored my part
Now man to man
What is the freaking truth
you owe me that much
As Man to man
Are you trying to damage her relationship with God?
If you love God, you would do this
Everyone deserves to know the truth
and we never hid anything like this from you
What does this solve?
Why are you doing this?
I wouldn't do this to my friend or stranger or enemy
Not sure how you can just ignore me
We never were eye to eye on matters
But I said sorry when you asked me to
to Dawn
I said I would do the best for Ashley that I can
and I have done that
I tried to help the problems which existed
I didn't hurt her when she came to me
You knew she was safe
I didn't prevent her from talking to you
She called you and eased your mind when she arrived here
You knew she was safe
you were able to talk to her
I just demand the same respect
Me still:
I don't understand you one bit. You guys make no sense to me. Not trying to be evil. Not trying to be hateful. I truly don't get you.
How can you allow your daughter to suffer
to cry
all of the time this past month
never update her anymore
not allow her to contact her mother if she is alive which she isn't
and how can you let this go on
then only care about your image in the end
what people will think of you
what people will say about you
only care about the delussions and illussions
more than your daughter
try to damage her relationship with God
then say that the abuse never happened
well guess what
I'm a witness now
You can't deny you aren't abusive
you are lying to her about a death
you never told her her grandma died
you aren't letting her know about her mother dying
you didn't tell her about sassy dying
Yet, when you called the police to know about Ashley's safety
She told the police to tell you she is alright
and she told you guys later she was alright
she responded to her mothers email
when she didn't have to
the last email when she responded around her birthday
and she replied back when she found it
she never left you hanging
It's almost like you want her to go insane
I heard you guys laughing at her on the phone
when she thought you died
I heard you guys
and you just said she was only listening to the devil
and laughing
and didn't even try to comfort her
didn
try to calm her down
it's like you guys just kicked her in the stomache
over and over while she was down
Say you aren't liars and we should trust you
and you guys just lie to my face
on the phone
not Ashley this time
but me
I don't get you. You see Ashley mentioning no pictures
then you post all of the pictures in the world
then deny her to speak or know about her mothers health
Why even post pictures to show Ashley
then Deny her to speak to her
WHAT FREAKING PURPOSE
does it serve
?
It's like the only way we will ever get any information
is if we fly down there
if we call the police
or if we hire someone to investigate the death records
It's just insane
we would never do this to you
And how are you even here all the time
when do you work
Why is it that every time dawn is on
You are on
and every time you are on
Dawn Marie on Buzzen is on
And when she fought with Dawn Marie on Buzzen
She said that you are no child of mine
and then afterwards
you stopped replying to her messages
when there was no reason to
you didn't know anything unless you were dawn marie
and why is summer breeze on at the same time
which is Moms Sister
because everytime you are on
Dawn Marie is on
and everytime her sister is on
Buzzen she is on Facebook
Even if we were crazy which we weren't
anyone else would draw the same conclusions
it's logical
it makes sense
and if we were wrong
you would have to admit it made sense
and correct
but We all know the truth
yet you just want to forever hide it for some reason
like you blame Ashley for her Moms Death
that is the only Answer
if she was alive
there would be no need
Her Mom would post something on facebook
saying how crazy her daughter is
or
post something because she is upset
she wouldn't just be silence
So the only explaination is
you blame Ashley
because she called you guys thinking you were dead
and then your wife gets a blood infection
the next day saying she was in the hospital
So you must blame Ashley
What else would explain such Hatred?
I am not trying to misuse God or anything
But God would never want you to do this
If you truly love God
You wouldn't do this
Because Jesus said to turn your cheek
if someone comes asking for forgiveness
forgive them 70 times over
basically
to not do Evil for Evil
but Good for Evil
So if you were the Good ones
You wouldn't be doing this
Dad:
Ashley this is ur dad talking. Mom is alive and doing well that is all u need to know until u get some professional help for yourself and to clear ur mind other than that I do not want u or ur boyfriend Anthony trying to contact us or ur mother in any way shape or form. I am letting u know this so u will leave us alone and I am letting u know mom is alive. For all of the hurtful things u have done to us this is one reason why we don't want to have anything to do with u because you are lost in ur own world and all of the lies. I don't know what ur listening to but it sure isn't god. Do not bother me ur mother or sister anymore
Me
1:21pm
Me
Ashley needs to hear her mom and then she can let it go
Because you lied
over the phone
I called you
This is Anthony
I called you on the phone
And you said it wasn't you
How can we believe you now
Just let Ashley Talk with her Mom
and then block her
from facebook
and she won't say that
Shes Dead
and
She can let it go
all she needs is to hear her
and then you can unfriend her
and block her
and she won't bother you
This will resolve it
All you need to do for her to be out of your life
is just let her mom talk to her for a minute or two
and she will stop thinking she is dead
and you can block her
and defriend her
and she will take you off facebook
Dad
6/19, 1:26pm
Dad
I refuse for Ashley to talk to her mother because she doesn't need to be stressed anymore than she already is. There will be absolutely no contact between Ashley and her mother because of all the hateful things and hurtful things she has said and done. We are done with this situation now. U can take it or leave it. She is alive. She can go ahead and block and delete us. If she doesn't believe that then that's on her yes this is her dad speaking no contact between her and her mother.
Me
1:27pm
Me
I don't know why you are doing this
You say you don't want her in your life
you have the ability
to block her
all you have to do
is unfriend her
and block her
We can't trust you
because you lied
on the phone
and
as for the stress
Ashley didn't even want to talk to her to stress her
YOU GUYS are the ones
that prevented the nursing home
from telling her shes not dead
if you would let the nursing home
reveal to her
it wouldn't have gone here
You owe me
yes you do
I did everything you guys wanted
I said sorry to her when she was upset
in the past
I talked to you before Ashley left as a Man to Man
just like you wanted
we Let you know Ashley was fine when the police came
and you said I was abusive
or she wasn't safe
I did everything and hid nothing
I never stopped Ashley from Talking to you
her mother
or her sister
When you guys wanted to know about her safety
you provided it
I provided it
She talked on the phone, she emailed
she let you know her condition
she showed photos
we did everything
and now we ask for something
for peace of mind
and you can't do it?
Any Doctor she went to
would ask the same thing
She wouldn't be able to recover
and the Doctor would seek proof
to show if she is wrong or not
And I'm not harrasing you or bothering you
you have it in your ability
to block us
any time you wish
Just like Kayla
and I left Kayla Alone
I didn't write her after she blocked us
all I know is a Father wouldn't do this to his Daughter
I talked to you on the phone
This person can't get messages right now

Sep 16, 2013

0 Quote about being remembered after death

After your death it's not love of fame which fuels it's power but the power of the life you lived to affect others.