0 What happened to this girl by Ariabelle Sierra

Does anyone care that your alive or dead?   thats the question that courses through your mind   when your feeling alone that no one knows your here   Will you ever cope with what happened to you as a kid?   will those thoughts every go away that stay in the back of your head   or will they always keep resurfing to hurt you again and again in the future   when you think your better from what people did?   or will you supress those memories once again..so you dont have to deal with them???   No one cares where your at no one cares what your dealing with   you have to fight the arguing that goes on inside your head   you have to deal with people talking about you   saying that your not who you are and that your just another little light that is loosing its beacon   and moving more into the dark side so you can somehow get rid of these thoughts so you dont have to deal with them anymore dont have to deal with anything   just have a normal life or somewhat a life that you try to have   but those inner demons hold you down with your own dark memories as your chains   that bind you to the ugly dugeon that you made for yourself   the ugly scars cutting deep into your creamy flesh to show whatl eaks in the inside the crimson twisted with sulfur acid   both burning so bright and so hard that it snaps the bones in half   freeing you to start something new with yourself   to recover from the ugly wounds that you made on yourself and what others did as well   you start descending more into the abyss as the cuts grow more and more on your body   that theres nothing to do but stay in this little dark room you made as your life now   Those little demons in your head telling you to create new scars to create more harm to your body   that its hard to hear what your thinking in your own head   trying so hard no to listen to what these little ugly beasts are saying too you   but where did you loose yourself? where did you go?   where did your other side go where did your light go   that made you want to get up and start a new life?   where did it all go what happened to this person you knew so well   why did you become something so ugly that you dont recongize it yourself   will you ever figure out what happened to the other side of yourself   or will that always be gone like the other memories went too.....   just in a box locked up somewhere deep inside your soul??   that even you cant get to it when you are feeling so lost   so down that you cant open this box thats suppose to have some wonderful memories and your heart in it   why did you loose something so precious that it will never be in your grasp ever again   what happened to that person to the one knowing how to be happy   how to live life how to push the voices out and to live a somewhat decent life   but these questions keep popping up each time..when something triggers it   How will you cope with people hurting you   with people taking away your innocence and not caring what happened to you   didnt care you had a opinion or a voice for that matter   only wanting what they wanted and thats just lust   not a girl who had a heart who had a mind..   NO they wanted just my body just wanting to satisify themselves   never caring how i will feel years later.. seeing what they did   to this body that once belonged to a happy girl   they screwed it up... screwed her mind up   making her think that shes a disgrace   that no one wants her that no one care who she is   or what she has to say... when will her voice be heard???   will it be today or will it be never????   is anyone going to help her out of this drowning pool   or people going to watch again and just silently look away when she dies   in her own world.. for not speaking up till now     Sigh inspired by apocalyptica featuring adam gontier called i dont care